Sometimes I wonder if I'm up there still hanging from your wall
You know the one by the window
Where we thought we'd see it all
The kitchen always looks cleaner when the cupboards are all closed

But with the doors now torn open
We see how empty they all were
We were more of an oil painting held steady on a wall
That when you got closer

It would lose its allure
It threw me off for a while and I know it fucked with you
But we were kids just playing selfish
I cannot hold it against you

We were looking for a method not a doctrine to make us think we weren't alone
We became each other's saviors
When we needed it the most
When I look back now it's as if we never lost our way

I think it makes this that much harder
I never saw it coming
We let what brought us together help slit each other's throats
But I think we both learned something

About what we value most
Maybe this was what we needed to help each other grow
But the sunlight's not as rich
When you breathe it in alone