The walls around me spin
I think of the way it began
If I were to know all the things that would change
For that rush, I'd still do it again

All that I've wanted is all that I've known
The callous pursuit of stimulants to a fault
Open the vault

Why do I seek that knowing the damage?
I face the scars on my arms
I can't deny that I romanticize it
Missing the times that I've mourned

The walls around me spin
I think of the way it began
If I were to know all the things that would change
For that rush, I'd do it again

What ever happened to all that I've learned?
That darkened abyss I really shouldn't miss at all
But here I go
Thinking about the glass shattered around me
Shame from the promise I broke
I can't deny that I romanticize it
Missing the times that I've mourned

Shadow men stalked me
All through the night
Shadow men stalked me
All through the night

The walls around me spin
I think of the way it began
If I were to know all the things that would change
For that rush, I'd do it again

Pull it, push it, tight fist
Pull it, push it and enter the void

But I escaped so long ago

Don't look down
Don't look down
The tourniquet I shouldn't miss
I shouldn't miss the warm caress
How can I?