i'm so alone in the darkest place i know i'm a prisoner in my mind and i'm searching for that light and the faith i left behind i've tried so hard to look you in the eye time has never been a friend and once again i've been betrayed by the weight of what i know and the choices that i've made you stood so tall and i've watched you fall looking on the bright side i've known some peace cried on the shoulders of better men than me it's going to take a lifetime to wash away if i want to stay clean i've got to start today